Painter PaintSplattered paint and golden raysSprayed across in careless waysPolished over with timely hazeKept freshly bright in memorie's' place.Painter paint me a pretty facePaint the joy and all the graceAll the things I see, replaceWith imaginary happy paste.World around in death decaysSo paint me painter, paint me faithTo keep me strong and keep me hazed.So I can block out all the pain.Fantasy dear painter paintEverything you see each dayMake me a portrait of mindless spaceWhere everything is golden facedAnd tears don't taint the perfect pagePaint me that, sweet painter paintIn color paint your heart awayFor me <3
Walk Away..Paper paperPages tornFrom a bookThat is my homeBreath, breathingAir that flowsMy lungs that pumpingOpen, closeWater saltTears that fallShaking lipsClenching jaw.Broken promiseLosing trustRoll right overIn the dustAnd walk away from it all
My Idea of PerfectionEveryone has and idea of perfectMine is kinda strange,I love when things are differentI love when colors change.I love to watch the waterRun, swirling down the stream,I love to see the raincloudsSpill rain in sheets of green.I love to seach for perfectionIn the tiny simplest things,I love to dance alone at nightIn the thick, white, yellow moonbeams.I love to swim to the music,The echo of deep water caves,I love to feel the raindropsWhile I´m ducking under waves.I love to see the smileThat creeps across your face,I love the way your eyes can tellA story full of grace.I love the things you doI can´t even explain,How much perfection i have found,In you, in just one day.
Go..Don't tell me i am beautifulJust because Im plainDon't tell me I am perfectBecause I am insaneDon't tell me I am worth itBecause you pity meDon't tell me I am full of lifeBecause you see me witheringDon't sit and tell me not to changeBecause you see I shouldDon't tell me I am wonderfulBecause I am no goodDon't try and change my mind todayTomorrow dear I'll be the sameAnd anything you try and sayWill never make a single changeCuz I am fucked as fucked can getAnd you're not close nough' to me yetAnd sorry but you'll never beCuz I keep myself under lock and keyWhere no one ever dare to reachIn fear they lose their tongue in speechI wield sharp knives and historyThat end and bleed out life I seeYou tried to make a change in meBut honestly I'm too busyTo try and sit and try and readThe rules you set out all your pleasJust go away just turn and leaveCuz this is how I'll always beThis is the comfort that I keepWhere no one reaches, no one seesThat I'm withdrawn
Who am I?I pace and pace and run and runAnd try to find myselfI keep running in circlesAnd finding someone else.I search for my refectionI try to find my eyesI cannot find a likenessTo who I am inside.I’m seeing things all differentI’m feeling all mixed upI’m caught in this positionAnd nothing is enoughI don’t know what Im doingI’m lost inside my mindNot knowing what I’m feelingOr what I want to find.Clouded by perfectionThat’s seen through others’ eyesWho says what’s truly perfectImportant thing’s you try.I want you to believe meI never meant to lieI tried to do the rightest thingI honestly did tryThe problem is I’m lost and searchingI’m searching for myselfAnd no amount of honest tryingCan help me be me for someone elseCuz I still don’t know who I am for myself..